Back to Basics

18 Nov

Tiny little books accompany my eldest son most school nights.  The reading homework made of thin paper holds the key to what he needs to read, comprehend, learn.

I sit with him and we sound out those simple words like ‘hit’, ‘bit’, ‘it’, ‘the’ and countless others. I was nervous to begin this whole reading journey with Wyatt.  I like the kids to just start doing what they’re suppose to and my patience was sure to run thin when a word like ‘sit’, comes out as ‘house’—not even close dude, not even close.

And yet as I sit and watch him, help him make those sounds, his brain working hard to put the words together, I find my heart in the same place as his growing mind.

Just as those silly little books begin the basics for my son in what he will have for the rest of his life, I too must get back to the basics of what I thought I had learned so long ago.

And I don’t mean the ‘S’ makes a ‘sssss’ sound.

It’s more those simple verses of……’but the greatest of these is love.’

‘Forgive one another, just as I have forgiven you.’

‘Pray unceasingly’

‘Give thanks’

‘Rejoice always’

‘I am the Way, the Truth and the Life’ and MANY others.

While I can read these words, my lips easily flowing their sounds, it’s my heart that stumbles to sound out their proper meaning. I stutter, mumble and halt in my stubbornness to submit to what the Lord is truly asking of me.  I love to complicate things, overanalyzing the simplest of things in my life.  I’m left with my finger pointing to words on a page that I refuse to obey.

I clearly remember Graham’s days in a coma, just laying there, doing absolutely nothing for himself.  One day he opened his eyes and in that moment, it was enough. And I was satisfied.

But quickly, I wanted more.  I wanted him to focus those eyes. Lift a finger. Move an arm. A leg.

The day he sat up on his own or made the first sounds out of his mouth in weeks I felt overjoyed and truly thankful. But it never lasted.  All I wanted was that guy back—the one that I had married those years ago.

I suppose I’m a slow learner because I’m just beginning to grasp some of the meaning for Graham’s injuries.  It was never for him—although he continues to deal and learn. It was never for our children—although I know one day they will understand it all. It was never even for all those blessed or encouraged—although I’m sure they remain blessed by our story.

No. It’s been my pride. My attitude. My heart. My life, that’s needed the most adjusting.

And nothing could’ve done it better for me than a brain injury.

It should be so basic, like the ABC’s of the alphabet, those vowels sounds—short and long. But like learning anything, it takes time. Practice. Sometimes messing up, a lot before it truly sticks.

I know at times I’ll continue to complicate things. Think too much about what others did to me or didn’t do. Said or didn’t say. Compare my marriage, my kids, my husband, my spiritual life, my physical life, all of it.  And I’ll struggle with wanting more of things—whether good and bad for me.

I’m thankful I can boast in Christ alone, the One who’s worthy. The One who brings me back to basics, who saves me everyday, loves me, forgives me and is proud to call me His daughter.

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Some humor after all that?

I was gone the other day for a few hours and Graham texted me to tell me he had snapped his fingers on his left hand for the first time since his accident. He was really excited about this and couldn’t wait to show me when I got home.  The poor guy couldn’t perform for an audience and hasn’t been able to snap them since. It’s only a finger snap, we realize that, but Graham was encouraged and excited the Lord gave him that small little ‘snap.’  To Graham it let him know the Lord’s still very much here with us, through the ups, downs and all arounds of a brain injury.  I catch him now walking around the house trying to snap his fingers.

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6 Responses to “Back to Basics”

  1. Leigh November 18, 2013 at 7:20 pm #

    great post!

  2. Sharon November 18, 2013 at 8:38 pm #

    I remember when Hannah was able to do that for the first time too!!! Seemingly “little” things can be so encouraging! Thank you once again for your honesty.

  3. Andrea November 19, 2013 at 12:32 am #

    Sigh, … It is always about the walk, sweet thing.
    You are a breath of fresh air to your LORD. :)

    Keep taking one step at a time toward your Heavenly Father’s plan.

    That date of Graham’s accident was my birthday and I was there…
    I love that I get to rejoice in at least two blessings of life each year on THAT day.
    I love that God has placed a prayer opportunity for me to pray for your family EVERY year for the rest of my life.
    I love that OUR God is holding you.
    I love that you are allowing HIM to mold you through everything.

    I Love your Jesus heart, Randi!
    (Devann’s Mom)

  4. L Lawrence November 19, 2013 at 11:44 pm #

    Love this!! Thank you. AND…congrats!!!

    Laureen

  5. Mollie Thompson November 20, 2013 at 5:36 am #

    Another fabulous tale and Praise The LORD !

    GOD bless you abundantly !

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  6. Mollie Thompson November 20, 2013 at 5:36 am #

    Just fabulous !

    Praise The LORD !

    GOD bless you abundantly !

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